Taking a break
Thursday, December 6, 2007 at 10:26PM I'm being forced into taking a break, as I can't seem to do so on my own. M and D leave at 8am tomorrow for a wedding in SC, and will be gone till Monday night. Fynn came home from the sitter w/a fever this afternoon, which climbed to 106 for a few hours. I was in an utter depression this afternoon about the race and lack of registrations, despite my gazillion flyers put up w/freezing hands and mangled tape, posts, articles, donations, etc ... it's been a ton of work so far and I've been looking at it as if the entire thing depends on my efforts. I seem to be ignoring the fact that God can choose to bless them or not. Time to lie low for a couple days and let go. It's not really up to me :). Newsletter this month was on vulnerability, and I seem to be feeling very much that way the last few days. M doesn't need to get a call while away that I've collapsed into a sobbing heap in the middle of the kitchen floor. I have some thinking to do this weekend, and am looking forward to the quiet.
Reader Comments (2)
Trying to settle upon feeling entitled, or else feeling full of shame, unless you remember to feel ashamed of that trap and then feel both at the same time.
hi bethany! i know this is hard...i'm glad you are "forced" to rest this weekend...i hope we can have a chat. love.