Squeezing
Monday, March 3, 2008 at 5:08PM Feeling a bit like I can't breathe again today, and have this voice playing over and over in my head every time I start to freak out. be still and know that i am god.
trying, I am, though it's hard. things feel like they're about to come crashing down around my ears.
i should be party planning for the boy who turns 6 tomorrow, but there's not a smidgen of budget for that. he did get a great present today, courtesy of a gift card his dad had squirreled away from his own birthday. Perhaps i will regret getting a power tool for a 6-year-old?! His dad's suggestion of course. A toolbox full of his own tools, wood glue, etc, and a cordless drill with a full bit set. It's the smallest they have (7.5 volts) but you can still do plenty of damage with that to just about anything. When i repeated a friend's concern to M about what he could do to his little brother with it, he replied that he doubted he could drill through bone, F had a tough skull. thanks for the flippant reassurance.
will i ever be done nagging and correcting homework? changing poopy diapers? freaking about bouncing checks?
be still.
(ok, I'll try)
no, really ... be still. and know. that I. am God.
ok.
Reader Comments (6)
Imagine arms around you giving you a firm, and yet still gentle, reassuring squeeze. That's me hugging you from way over here.
And here's a little encouragement from Rapunzel. She asked Shawn's Aunt Kedge at meting yesterday, "what do I need to do to break bread and be in fellowship." Isn't that just awesome?
She understands why and everything. I knew it was coming in the next few months but I didn't expect it quite so soon.
I guess it's just a way of God letting me know that everything really will be ok, and that I'm not completely screwing up my kids.
You don't like being still. Perhaps it's a bad idea.
You have me all choked up!
I too need to be still, too much chaose for me to even write it out, cannot even get it figured out in my head.
Yup....need to be still and hear that small voice.
Thank you.
wikkid: it's the inner stillness i need
cc and anna: thank you much.
or to let the primal roar out.
hey. did you ever read the context of the "be still" comment? why god was saying it, what was going on at the time, etc. might put some perspective on why it's popping into your head...or not. think i'll go read it meself...probably would do me some good.